Squid Ink

1. More and more lenses of mine are struggling for traffic. A vast majority of them are at 0 or 1 visitor. I’m running out of ideas to get them noticed.
2. My nominations for Purple Stars (not my lenses; I don’t nominate my own) are not getting picked.
3. The traffic to my lenses have dropped considerably.
4. People rarely comment on my blogs on blogger. (I don’t include those on Crabbysbeach, Squidtop because I do get comments on those!)
5. I’m way behind on my designing….my laptop gave up the ghost and I’m struggling to get back into the flow of things.
6. I’m disheartened and angry with my doctors. Results of my tests have come back with abnormalities but I’m told they’re normal (when they are so obviously not) just so they can fit it all in with the diagnosis of IBS.

I’ve decided to do things for myself (as I always do) in regards to my health and have come to the conclusion through experience and tests that I have numerous food intolerances. I do not have IBS!

I’m appalled at the bedside manner of one GP I had a phone call from regarding my blood tests who said that as I wasn’t dead I couldn’t have bowel cancer! Nice! I never said I did! I just want them to acknowledge there is something wrong even if they don’t know what it is.

So with a lactose intolerance (a new one) I’m cutting out all food products containing lactose and see how I go.

Next, it will be wheat…

Have you missed me?

I’ve been away from the computer because I’ve been depressed. But, that could be because my better half wasn’t around for a few days and I kinda missed him.

So, I’ve not worked on my lenses, blogs, writing, reviewing or anything.

Even a walk couldn’t shake me out of that mood. It was really weird. I was restless; couldn’t settle down to anything not even playing video games which usually does the trick.

I don’t feel too bad now but I know it wouldn’t take much for me to sink back down into the dark pit so I’m working hard at staying motivated.

One other thing I did whilst I was feeling this way was eat far too much! For most of my life, I followed the rule of live to eat. But, now, if I’m not careful I tend to follow the rule of eat to live. Not good! It won’t help my weight loss efforts at all.

So, now I’m going wheat free again. I do this off and on and hardly ever stick to it because I find it difficult to find foods that are healthy and relatively cheap to live on that doesn’t include wheat. I also stay away from milk products if I can. I have whitener in my decaff coffee and I use soya milk if I eat cereal. This is all to do with my very many intolerances which are aggravated when I’m stressed or depressed.

I’m now sitting here with a full bladder as I wait for my uro-gynaecological appt at 1PM. Ergh! I hate this!

In the end I deleted the WIP lens that I mentioned here. It was a subject that had been inspired by a news article

but unfortunately I did not have enough information in order to create it.

Never mind! I’m sure there are plenty where that came from though I have to admit to not having as much inspiration where Squidoo lenses are concerned, at the moment, as I’d like.

In fact, I’mfeeling empty where everything is concerned. It’s probably a bout of depression which is something I’ve learned to deal with over the years and I’m sure it will pass eventually. However, it just makes working that much harder.

I don’t think it helps that I’m not feeling that well and I have an idea it’s because my Vitamin B12 is low. I have to go and have blood tests done today so that I can hopefully restart my injections on the 1st March. But ironically I don’t feel well enough to go! However, I will do so…

That is all the news I have for the moment…

Well I’m still here.

Thanks to all those who commented on my last post

I’m still in pain but eating kind of normally. I daren’t go out anywhere too far though!

I’ve deleted one of my lenses I just didn’t have the passion for the subject and I couldn’t see a way to increase interest in it. So, it’s gone.

However, I still have several other lenses that aren’t doing all that well. It’s worrying me really…

To increase my chances of becoming a Giant Squid I’m creating a few more lenses just in case I can’t get these others to do well.

It doesn’t help that I don’t feel up to doing much at all with my lenses or anything at the moment. I hate staying indoors for too long but I really don’t have the strength to do otherwise. What I could do with is a laptop; something I can use and work on whilst I lounge in bed feeling sorry for myself.

Anyway, just a quick update

Wooeee! That was one hell of a weekend!

Talk about needing to confront your own fears (emetophobia to be exact)…Never again, please!

Anyway, because of that and the time it took to get back to relative normal (still not quite there, yet) I’ve been a bit behind with my lenses, blogs and stuff.

But, it has given me an idea for something though indirectly…

Now, I need to get a review done; something which has been long overdue but I thought I would do a Squidoo lens on it which will help promote the book further.

I’m hoping the editor will approve!